Ok, so I was reading about Jacob a week or two ago, and I can't really get it out of my mind. I studied Genesis senior year of high school, and I realized some things. Well, this month, I've re-realized some things, so I thought I would share. If you want to know the Scriptural background to this, please read Genesis 32:22 until the end (it is the story of Jacob wrestling with God). [Katie and Chelsea, you've already heard this :)]
I absolutely love Jacob's audacity and his realness here. He knows God is leading him to Esau, and I'm sure he is terrified. I so relate to what I think Jacob is feeling. There have been times when i don't understand what is going on, and I don't like where God has me, and I don't like what He is doing. I remember one specific spring where I literally felt like I was wrestling with God over a lot of things. Its hard to follow God, and sometimes I just don't want to go where He is sending me! And God welcomes that! He wants us to wrestle with him. He wants us to talk things out. He wants to hear our anger, our fear, and our uncertainty. When we are honest with Him, He blesses us for that. To wrestle with God is to know Him, to realize, "I CAN trust You!" I don't believe that God expects blind obedience. He wants our trust, and while we won't always understand, God doesn't expect us to never question or never wonder or never get angry. He desires our honesty in those emotions. God wants our obedience, but He doesn't expect us to go along with what we think we should do, stuffing our feelings down and growing more and more bitter inside. In Revelation, it talks about God wanting to spit lukewarm Believers out of His mouth; He'd rather you be hot or cold. Usually people use this when talking about belief in Him, but I think it applies to our feelings as well. God wants our emotions. He created them!
This story is a perfect example of Jacob feeling and being honest with God and walking away changed because of it. And God makes Jacob the leader of God's chosen people here! When God changes Jacob's name is Israel, that makes him the head of God's people. To me, that is God saying, "You are honest with me, you are devoted to me, you are not content to just go along but you want to know and understand me." I think God loves it when we want to know Him, not just blindly follow what we think we should do.
So honesty really is the best policy. God wants our hearts, our genuine selves. And that is what I want to give Him.
Monday, September 27, 2010
Sunday, September 26, 2010
All The Things That Mean The Most
What a full weekend! It has been so wonderful though.
Friday, my parents arrived for Family Weekend! Yay! We went to dinner with my roommate and some friends. Afterwards, Mama, Daddy, and I walked down to get ice cream. It was so fun (and delicious). Then we went out separate ways (I hadn't requested Time Away so I had to stay in the dorm).
Saturday, my parents saw my room, toured the study away fair, and then we headed to our Tri Delt family weekend lunch! It was neat to see all my fellow Tri Delts with their families. My parents and I debated about going to the football game, but they hadn't gotten tickets and it was really hot, so we decided to skip it. Instead, we headed to their hotel and watched football. I made a quick trip to the bookstore and the grocery store to get game day food. It was just like old time; I usually half watch football and half watch the game at home. But don't worry, I stopped reading to pull Bama through to (barely) defeat Arkansas. Roll tide!
It was really fun and relaxing. It was nice to just be away from school for a little while! And then to see my parents, that was wonderful. My daddy couldn't come to Family Weekend last year, and it was such a treat to have him here this year. And then I go home in October!
Its a perfect rainy day today. Perfect for staying in bed all day. I listened to a sermon on my computer (I know, not the same as going to church and fellowshipping, but I didn't really sleep well last night), and now my plan is to just get school work crossed off my list!
Here is something that jumped out to me from the sermon I listened to this morning: "God invites us to be a part of His salvation process through missions." I love that. God asks us to join Him in drawing people to Himself. He didn't have to do that; He could easily turn hearts all on His own. But He invites us to join in with Him. What a gift!
And finally, here is my new favorite song. :) Melts my heart!
Friday, my parents arrived for Family Weekend! Yay! We went to dinner with my roommate and some friends. Afterwards, Mama, Daddy, and I walked down to get ice cream. It was so fun (and delicious). Then we went out separate ways (I hadn't requested Time Away so I had to stay in the dorm).
Saturday, my parents saw my room, toured the study away fair, and then we headed to our Tri Delt family weekend lunch! It was neat to see all my fellow Tri Delts with their families. My parents and I debated about going to the football game, but they hadn't gotten tickets and it was really hot, so we decided to skip it. Instead, we headed to their hotel and watched football. I made a quick trip to the bookstore and the grocery store to get game day food. It was just like old time; I usually half watch football and half watch the game at home. But don't worry, I stopped reading to pull Bama through to (barely) defeat Arkansas. Roll tide!
It was really fun and relaxing. It was nice to just be away from school for a little while! And then to see my parents, that was wonderful. My daddy couldn't come to Family Weekend last year, and it was such a treat to have him here this year. And then I go home in October!
Its a perfect rainy day today. Perfect for staying in bed all day. I listened to a sermon on my computer (I know, not the same as going to church and fellowshipping, but I didn't really sleep well last night), and now my plan is to just get school work crossed off my list!
Here is something that jumped out to me from the sermon I listened to this morning: "God invites us to be a part of His salvation process through missions." I love that. God asks us to join Him in drawing people to Himself. He didn't have to do that; He could easily turn hearts all on His own. But He invites us to join in with Him. What a gift!
And finally, here is my new favorite song. :) Melts my heart!
Saturday, September 18, 2010
She Works Hard for the Money/Grades
Right now I am studying for a Biology test. I have learned that water is just hydrogen bonds continually breaking and re-joining back together. So when we drink water, we are drinking constantly moving hydrogen bonds. Also, temperate forests face many problem-causing bugs and diseases that hail from Asia. Temperate grasslands struggle with major fires, but this causes really good soil. Rain forests are not a place I would want to live because they are very humid, have very poor soil, and hold a lot of animals. Deserts are caused mostly by Hadley Cells, which drop hot air right over the desert and that warm air sucks up all moisture. The plants are prepared for it though.
I am writing a paper for Intro to Islam about how Western view of Islam has changed since 9/11. I'm going to look at media representation, Orientalism, and American Islam. It should be interesting.
I had an Anthropology test last week. I really enjoy reading for Anthropology. Some of it is really boring, but the ethnography we read was really interesting even though I never want to go to Zambia and meet the Tonga people. I still learned some cool things.
Intro to Music is fine. Nothing major there. Just learning about disjunct and conjunct and major and minor and that sort of thing. We talked about Gregorian chants for a while. Now we're on the Baroque period.
I'm studying a lot, trying to stay on top of work. This last week and then this coming Monday have caused me a lot of work/stress, but then I should have two fairly easy weeks, which is nice! Especially because we have roommate contracts coming up, which will take some time. But I can't really complain about my classes, because although I don't like Bio I have a hilarious professor and although my Anthropology professor is unusual, I enjoy the reading. It all works out somehow!
P.S. For those of you wondering why I am writing this, it is for my father. Daddy complained that he never hears about me studying or what I'm learning. Personally, I think I share a lot about what I'm learning, just not what I'm learning academically. But here you go, Daddy. This is everything I am currently learning in school. Love you!
My Biology Book
I had an Anthropology test last week. I really enjoy reading for Anthropology. Some of it is really boring, but the ethnography we read was really interesting even though I never want to go to Zambia and meet the Tonga people. I still learned some cool things.
Intro to Music is fine. Nothing major there. Just learning about disjunct and conjunct and major and minor and that sort of thing. We talked about Gregorian chants for a while. Now we're on the Baroque period.
Baroque Sheet Music
P.S. For those of you wondering why I am writing this, it is for my father. Daddy complained that he never hears about me studying or what I'm learning. Personally, I think I share a lot about what I'm learning, just not what I'm learning academically. But here you go, Daddy. This is everything I am currently learning in school. Love you!
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Shadowfeet
At Bible study tonight, we were talking about control. For some reason, Hungary kept coming to mind and being my example for all the situations we talked about.
As I've mentioned MANY times, I love to think I'm in control. I love to be independent, and I love to have MY plan and be in control over everything going on. Um, hello, sin! Right there.
Well tonight, God reminded me again of this, but this time He pointedly told me that I was sinning with Hungary.
I haven't said it on this blog, mostly out of fear I think, but as of now, I am doing all I can to go back to Hungary for the whole summer next year. God gave me so many open doors with the youth group there, and I feel Him guiding me to work with the youth group next summer. I'm trusting that this is His plan and that He will close the doors if it isn't. I'll talk more about that later.
I think about Hungary a lot. As in, every day. And then, since Robin will be in Budapest this weekend, I've been perpetually transported to Diosd in my mind. I got a facebook post from my sweet friend Dori, and suddenly I didn't want to be here any more. That is sort of my struggle, wanting to be in Hungary right now. I love school, I love being an RA, I love being with my friends, but sometimes I just don't want to be here. I know how plentiful the harvest is in Diosd right now, and that is where I want to be. Since I'm walking in faith that God has called me there next summer, its really easy for me to start clinging to that, wishing away my days, taking control of my plans and what I have to do and when I have to do it and how I have to do it. But that is so the opposite point of the whole thing!
The reason I feel called to Hungary next summer is because God is so beyond me! He is so above me, so in control, that He totally changed my heart and gave me direction to a path I honestly hadn't considered before. I remember in Hungary when the thoughts started coming of Hey, I could do this all summer next year... and transformed to I have to come back. God is doing something here and He is using me, I was so stunned, so overwhelmed, so out of control about the whole thing. No, that does not fit my four year plan with school. But it does make sense in my life, because God directed it. He is in control of that. I want to remember that. Times like now when I am trying to control this, I want to remember that no, I'm not in control. That is God's story, His purpose, and I want to leave it to Him to see how it unfolds. I have taken the actions that He has called me to do, and now I'm in a period of waiting, which is good.
This applies to more than Hungary, obviously, but tonight God really called me out. When my heart misses my Hungarian friends and family, that is good, but His best is in every moment. Mama, you say that all the time, and it is so true. I see it every day. But I easily forget it. God has called me to this, to school and being an RA and being with my friends. He has a plan for me here and now, just as He has a plan for me in the near and far future. I don't want to be in control, I want to trust Him. So I'm giving this summer to Him (again). Whenever I think about Hungary or start missing it, I'm going to just pray about it, tell God what I'm feeling and pray for those I know (and don't know!) back in Diosd. If you are so lead, please be praying with me in this, for yourself also: that we would be committed to God's plan and will for our lives and not continually try to take control of it.
Till next time.
As I've mentioned MANY times, I love to think I'm in control. I love to be independent, and I love to have MY plan and be in control over everything going on. Um, hello, sin! Right there.
Well tonight, God reminded me again of this, but this time He pointedly told me that I was sinning with Hungary.
I haven't said it on this blog, mostly out of fear I think, but as of now, I am doing all I can to go back to Hungary for the whole summer next year. God gave me so many open doors with the youth group there, and I feel Him guiding me to work with the youth group next summer. I'm trusting that this is His plan and that He will close the doors if it isn't. I'll talk more about that later.
I think about Hungary a lot. As in, every day. And then, since Robin will be in Budapest this weekend, I've been perpetually transported to Diosd in my mind. I got a facebook post from my sweet friend Dori, and suddenly I didn't want to be here any more. That is sort of my struggle, wanting to be in Hungary right now. I love school, I love being an RA, I love being with my friends, but sometimes I just don't want to be here. I know how plentiful the harvest is in Diosd right now, and that is where I want to be. Since I'm walking in faith that God has called me there next summer, its really easy for me to start clinging to that, wishing away my days, taking control of my plans and what I have to do and when I have to do it and how I have to do it. But that is so the opposite point of the whole thing!
The reason I feel called to Hungary next summer is because God is so beyond me! He is so above me, so in control, that He totally changed my heart and gave me direction to a path I honestly hadn't considered before. I remember in Hungary when the thoughts started coming of Hey, I could do this all summer next year... and transformed to I have to come back. God is doing something here and He is using me, I was so stunned, so overwhelmed, so out of control about the whole thing. No, that does not fit my four year plan with school. But it does make sense in my life, because God directed it. He is in control of that. I want to remember that. Times like now when I am trying to control this, I want to remember that no, I'm not in control. That is God's story, His purpose, and I want to leave it to Him to see how it unfolds. I have taken the actions that He has called me to do, and now I'm in a period of waiting, which is good.
This applies to more than Hungary, obviously, but tonight God really called me out. When my heart misses my Hungarian friends and family, that is good, but His best is in every moment. Mama, you say that all the time, and it is so true. I see it every day. But I easily forget it. God has called me to this, to school and being an RA and being with my friends. He has a plan for me here and now, just as He has a plan for me in the near and far future. I don't want to be in control, I want to trust Him. So I'm giving this summer to Him (again). Whenever I think about Hungary or start missing it, I'm going to just pray about it, tell God what I'm feeling and pray for those I know (and don't know!) back in Diosd. If you are so lead, please be praying with me in this, for yourself also: that we would be committed to God's plan and will for our lives and not continually try to take control of it.
Till next time.
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Take Me For Longing
My big is going to Budapest this weekend.
You can't understand how jealous I am.
I am imagining it in my mind, all the places they will go, the people they could potentially see (but not even realize...), the beautiful language they will hear...Sigh.
You can't understand how jealous I am.
I am imagining it in my mind, all the places they will go, the people they could potentially see (but not even realize...), the beautiful language they will hear...Sigh.
Makes my heart ache a little
Now it hurts a lot. I miss them!
Robin, have so much fun in Hungary! Make all the Hungary jokes you want, eat all the ice cream you want, take TONS of pictures, write a great blogpost about it, and say a little prayer for my Hungarian family! Love you, Big!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
The World is Ours Tonight
This weekend has been amazing. Seriously, it reminded me of why I love college.
Friday night, I, along with Katie, Chelsea, a few RAs, and my supervisor, went to the fair! My supervisor , Greer, told us about it and got a group together. Of course, I definitely wanted in on that! It was so fun. We rode on the rides (you should have seen Greer! She was like a little kid. She loved it and went on all the rides), we ate fair food (yum! Love me some fried pickles!), and, potentially best of all, we went to a demolition derby! SO FUN! We all cheered Dr. Death on as he destroyed Dover and Christine and Widow-Maker. Yay, Dr. Death (Thanks, Dad! - that's for you, Katie and Chelly)! I'm officially a Demo Deby fan and plan on going back. Yes, I did just write that. It was such a fun night. Watching people, laughing with friends...It was really cool to be with (mostly) fellow RAs, because none of us had to be responsible for anyone and we all are going through really similar things. It was a fun night.
Then, Saturday was the first home football game! YES!!! We went tailgating around 1, saw a bunch of friends (talk about a difference from freshman year when we had no idea what we were doing or who anyone was!), and then headed into the stadium! It started raining a little, but it didn't matter. Being there with so many friends, listening to the band (knowing people in the band), watching the cheerleaders (two girls form my hall - whoo whoo! And one of my Tri Delt friends. And a guy from my brother hall), and watching the game (what I could see of it), it was just so much better and different this year! It was fun last year, for sure, but this year, I just belong more. I've survived a year, I know the ropes, so to speak, and I just feel at home here. Even when it started pouring rain (as in, I may as well not have taken a shower today), we all just stood on the bleachers and cheered the team and then the band during the half time show!
After half time, Olivia, Katie, Carolyn (she's in my pledge class), and I went downtown to the Indi Crafts Fair! Wow. We saw so many cute things. I ended up buying a necklace and some earrings that I really like. It was so fun to look around and admire people's creativity! I'm including their websites below in case you want to check them out (which you should).
http://www.etsy.com/shop/thevintagevanity
Friday night, I, along with Katie, Chelsea, a few RAs, and my supervisor, went to the fair! My supervisor , Greer, told us about it and got a group together. Of course, I definitely wanted in on that! It was so fun. We rode on the rides (you should have seen Greer! She was like a little kid. She loved it and went on all the rides), we ate fair food (yum! Love me some fried pickles!), and, potentially best of all, we went to a demolition derby! SO FUN! We all cheered Dr. Death on as he destroyed Dover and Christine and Widow-Maker. Yay, Dr. Death (Thanks, Dad! - that's for you, Katie and Chelly)! I'm officially a Demo Deby fan and plan on going back. Yes, I did just write that. It was such a fun night. Watching people, laughing with friends...It was really cool to be with (mostly) fellow RAs, because none of us had to be responsible for anyone and we all are going through really similar things. It was a fun night.
The Fair Grounds
The Ferris Wheel
Yes, I rode it, and yes, I gripped Katie's hand the whole time
Me, Katie, and Chelsea
The Demo Derby! Yay, Dr Death!
The Whole Group
Then, Saturday was the first home football game! YES!!! We went tailgating around 1, saw a bunch of friends (talk about a difference from freshman year when we had no idea what we were doing or who anyone was!), and then headed into the stadium! It started raining a little, but it didn't matter. Being there with so many friends, listening to the band (knowing people in the band), watching the cheerleaders (two girls form my hall - whoo whoo! And one of my Tri Delt friends. And a guy from my brother hall), and watching the game (what I could see of it), it was just so much better and different this year! It was fun last year, for sure, but this year, I just belong more. I've survived a year, I know the ropes, so to speak, and I just feel at home here. Even when it started pouring rain (as in, I may as well not have taken a shower today), we all just stood on the bleachers and cheered the team and then the band during the half time show!
(Some of) McG 100!
Me, Chelsea, Tori, and Katie
Some of my pledge class
After half time, Olivia, Katie, Carolyn (she's in my pledge class), and I went downtown to the Indi Crafts Fair! Wow. We saw so many cute things. I ended up buying a necklace and some earrings that I really like. It was so fun to look around and admire people's creativity! I'm including their websites below in case you want to check them out (which you should).
Carolyn, Katie, me, and Olivia at the crafts fair
Well, till next time!
Websites:
http://www.etsy.com/shop/17dovestreethttp://www.etsy.com/shop/thevintagevanity
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Words I Couldn't Say
They say a picture is worth a thousand words, so here are a couple thousand words for you:
Roomies
The Beautiful Falls Park
Our Picnic Blanket
Fierce Laura
Chelsea!!!
Reedy River
The Lovely Laura
Chelsea and I
Goofing Off
(One in a series of drama shots)
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Let's Dance
My Tie: Take Two
I loved My Tie last year; I went with a group of girls on my hall and we had a blast. We danced and danced. In fact, my roommate and I stayed until the very end of the dance! It was so fun, especially since it was just a bunch of girls there to have fun.
This year, My Tie was equally fun! It was really different to be on the other side of things. Karen actually didn't go to My Tie last year, so it was her first experience. Our halls went out to dinner together, which was really fun. Us hall staffers all sat together. Dean had the idea to go around and pick names for everyone (what they looked like they would be named if they didn't have the names their parents gave them). It was really funny. Anyway, we went to the actual dance, and it was awkward at first (the freshmen don't know each other, and I know from experience that it is hard to dance with people you don't even know). Then, unfortunately after most of the freshmen left, a bunch of upperclassmen came (including a lot of Tri Deltas), the DJ started playing good songs, and we had such a good time. It was fun.
I loved My Tie last year; I went with a group of girls on my hall and we had a blast. We danced and danced. In fact, my roommate and I stayed until the very end of the dance! It was so fun, especially since it was just a bunch of girls there to have fun.
This year, My Tie was equally fun! It was really different to be on the other side of things. Karen actually didn't go to My Tie last year, so it was her first experience. Our halls went out to dinner together, which was really fun. Us hall staffers all sat together. Dean had the idea to go around and pick names for everyone (what they looked like they would be named if they didn't have the names their parents gave them). It was really funny. Anyway, we went to the actual dance, and it was awkward at first (the freshmen don't know each other, and I know from experience that it is hard to dance with people you don't even know). Then, unfortunately after most of the freshmen left, a bunch of upperclassmen came (including a lot of Tri Deltas), the DJ started playing good songs, and we had such a good time. It was fun.
My hall! (not everyone, some didn't go to My Tie)
Karen and I
I'll leave you with my new favorite song. Ok, I always have a new favorite song, but well, I just really like this band.
Thursday, September 2, 2010
Enjoy The Ride
Here at school, all the Greek organizations have to have an academic advisor. Typically, in my understanding, it is a member of the faculty here was a member of that organization in college (I know, you are in it for life or whatever, but well, that's just too complicated). Fortunately, there is no faculty member here who was/is a Delta Delta Delta. I say fortunately because that means that we get to have Owen McFadden as our academic advisor.
We love Owen; its pretty universal. I think there is something about it in Initiation (well, Owen does come to our after-Initiation dinner!). I didn't really get to know Owen very well last semester; he is in charge of intramural sports, and we just never saw each other. But last night, he invited my pledge class over for dinner. He and his lovely wife, Mary Beth, made us lasagna, salads, bread, brownies and ice cream. It was delicious. It was wonderful to hang out in a house (a real house! With real walls, not cinder blocks! Right, Liz?)! I can't even explain it to you. Sitting down to a home-cooked meal, not worrying about anything at school, just talking and laughing with someone NOT within four years of age of me.
I was having so much fun that when my ride left, I decided to stay behind and get a ride with someone else. Naturally, one person leaving led to an influx of nearly everyone deciding they needed to leave as well. Everyone, that is, except my friend Olivia and I. Neither of us drove, and we told Owen we should probably head out. "I can drive you back later!" He said. Olivia and I looked at each other, listened to the car doors slamming, and just shrugged. We helped Mary Beth clean up a little, but then we retired to the living room to talk. Oh my gosh. It was so fun. We talked about Tri Delta, we talked about Owen's genealogy, we talked about how Mary Beth and Owen met (Mary Beth dated Owen's best friend for three and a half years!), we talked about how two years ago they drove across the country (I got to look through their picture albums; the pictures are amazing! Daddy, I told you that is what I want to do after I graduate, and this conversation just reinforced it!), we talked about their kids. Oh and get this: Mary Beth's family is from Hungary. Yes indeed! So naturally I freaked out about that. She'd been to Budapest a few years ago, so we talked about how beautiful it is. (Side note: Thankfully, I can't get away from Hungary! I have a friend here whose dad was raised in Hungary, we talked about Hungarian the language in my Intro to Islam class, Mary Beth is Hungarian, it came up somewhere else too...I love it!) It was such a fun night. Seriously, we talked and talked and laughed. Finally around 11:30, I asked Owen to take us home because I had an 8:30 this morning.
I got back to the room, and Karen said, "Where have you been?!" I told her I'd been at Owen's and we talked about the night. Then she said, "You are in such a good mood!" And then I started freaking out (in excitement) about how good I felt, how relaxing it was, how it was weird that I hadn't really felt this good since coming to school. Karen said, "See, its important for you to have a life!" (or something along those lines) Its true, though. There were a couple time sitting at Owen's that I thought, I should check my phone, make sure everything's ok back on the hall. But then I put it out of my mind and just enjoyed myself. I learned a valuable lesson. Even today I've noticed that I tend to be more up-tight, but I keep remember how relaxed I was yesterday and am trying to have that attitude all the time. Sure, there are problems that I need to deal with, but they don't need to control me. So that is my new resolution (Karen, I know you are proud. ;) And as my roomie, I'm asking you to hold me accountable to that!).
We love Owen; its pretty universal. I think there is something about it in Initiation (well, Owen does come to our after-Initiation dinner!). I didn't really get to know Owen very well last semester; he is in charge of intramural sports, and we just never saw each other. But last night, he invited my pledge class over for dinner. He and his lovely wife, Mary Beth, made us lasagna, salads, bread, brownies and ice cream. It was delicious. It was wonderful to hang out in a house (a real house! With real walls, not cinder blocks! Right, Liz?)! I can't even explain it to you. Sitting down to a home-cooked meal, not worrying about anything at school, just talking and laughing with someone NOT within four years of age of me.
I was having so much fun that when my ride left, I decided to stay behind and get a ride with someone else. Naturally, one person leaving led to an influx of nearly everyone deciding they needed to leave as well. Everyone, that is, except my friend Olivia and I. Neither of us drove, and we told Owen we should probably head out. "I can drive you back later!" He said. Olivia and I looked at each other, listened to the car doors slamming, and just shrugged. We helped Mary Beth clean up a little, but then we retired to the living room to talk. Oh my gosh. It was so fun. We talked about Tri Delta, we talked about Owen's genealogy, we talked about how Mary Beth and Owen met (Mary Beth dated Owen's best friend for three and a half years!), we talked about how two years ago they drove across the country (I got to look through their picture albums; the pictures are amazing! Daddy, I told you that is what I want to do after I graduate, and this conversation just reinforced it!), we talked about their kids. Oh and get this: Mary Beth's family is from Hungary. Yes indeed! So naturally I freaked out about that. She'd been to Budapest a few years ago, so we talked about how beautiful it is. (Side note: Thankfully, I can't get away from Hungary! I have a friend here whose dad was raised in Hungary, we talked about Hungarian the language in my Intro to Islam class, Mary Beth is Hungarian, it came up somewhere else too...I love it!) It was such a fun night. Seriously, we talked and talked and laughed. Finally around 11:30, I asked Owen to take us home because I had an 8:30 this morning.
I got back to the room, and Karen said, "Where have you been?!" I told her I'd been at Owen's and we talked about the night. Then she said, "You are in such a good mood!" And then I started freaking out (in excitement) about how good I felt, how relaxing it was, how it was weird that I hadn't really felt this good since coming to school. Karen said, "See, its important for you to have a life!" (or something along those lines) Its true, though. There were a couple time sitting at Owen's that I thought, I should check my phone, make sure everything's ok back on the hall. But then I put it out of my mind and just enjoyed myself. I learned a valuable lesson. Even today I've noticed that I tend to be more up-tight, but I keep remember how relaxed I was yesterday and am trying to have that attitude all the time. Sure, there are problems that I need to deal with, but they don't need to control me. So that is my new resolution (Karen, I know you are proud. ;) And as my roomie, I'm asking you to hold me accountable to that!).
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