Current Thoughts from the Bedside

I walked into Mama's unit yesterday, suited up, grabbed her hand and said, "Hi, Mama!" All of a sudden she opened her eyes and smiled real big at me. It was perfect, exactly what I had been waiting for.

Mama is truly my best friend. We've always been that way. Every time I come home from school, she has this special smile that just tells me she loves me, she's glad I'm home, and that she's glad she's my mom. I don't know how a smile says all of that, but it does. Every time I walked into her little unit yesterday and said hello, she gave me that smile. I cannot tell you what it meant for my heart to see it.

Mama was pretty agitated yesterday, wanting those tubes out of her. They sedated her last night, so she's pretty calm today from that wearing out. They aren't giving her more sedation for a while, so she should be more responsive later today.

I'm just so thankful to be home. Its hard to see her like this still, but that smile makes everything worth it. There is no better feeling than the one I get when she smiles at me.

As we wait, I have hope. I'm confident in where we are, in the doctors, in the hospital, in our friends and family.      I am waiting expectantly.  The only words that describe it are from the hold hymn. "Strength for today and bright hope for tomorrow - blessings all mine, and ten thousand beside! Great is Thy faithfulness! Great is Thy faithfulness!"